006: On Writing Less
From writing around 5-7 posts per month to barely even writing any. Looking at my blog honestly feels so different now, compared to a few years back. I used to be so proud of all the content I put up and my blog was the only piece of work I was relatively proud of. Now.. Well, now, not so much.
You could argue that the content I used to put up weren't really that good, and I honestly couldn't agree more. Whenever I read through them, I cringe, yes, but I also remember being so excited to write all of those blog posts. I remember having this notebook where I planned the posts I wanted to write. I remember having so much fun.
I can't exactly say the same for when I read my more recent blog posts. For most parts, I just sound fake. When I try to write something relatively happy, I end up deleting it even before it gets published because it feels either really fake or trying way too hard.
Like everything I write isn't really genuine anymore, ya feel? I feel like I'm always trying to be interesting, trying to be a "better writer", trying to catch up with how the internet works, trying to be something I'm not. Heck, my bio in the blog says "I try." (I've changed it though, so you won't see it anymore haha!).
For one thing, I know I still love writing. That love will never die, but I've been so conscious about how people will think of what I write that it kind of filters my writing so much. I don't think I'm making a lot of sense, but yeah that's how it feels lol.
I do, however, hope to be able to write more and not worry about what everybody else will say or think, because this is my blog. This is my little corner of the internet and if anything, it should reflect who I really am (tired and stressed? jks). I want to be able to write about anything again and love whatever it is I end up writing just because it's mine and I enjoyed writing it.
What a ramble-y post. Thankfully, it's short.
Thanks for stopping by :)
Andrea
4 comments
Write commentsPlease write more, I've missed you lots! I've also come back from an 8-month hiatus and everything just feels different, right?
ReplyNeriah | My Life In A Tab
Wow, I can totally relate to this. I'm never even quite sure HOW it happens, or what happens to us, yknow. Do we just outgrow blogs? Or is it an outgrowth of something else, whatever it was that led us to blog in the first place. hahah, it's weird, but i can relate and think about this alot. Hope you keep at your writing though. :)
Replyx leah x
www.itsleli.com
Nevermind the length of our hiatuses, as long as we return, amirite? It's nice to see you blogging again! Hope to read more from you soon :)
ReplyI'm hoping to rekindle my love for blogging though, it's so fulfilling to see how much our writing styles develop throughout time. Just visited your blog and I'm so glad to see you blogging again too, Leah! :)
ReplyMay the comments be ever in my favor (or not)