Archive for 2016

005: In Which I Just Write About How I Feel

Saturday, November 19, 2016 3 Comments A+ a-


I have been spending so much time writing, but not because it's NaNoWriMo. It's not even because I want to keep this blog alive again. I've been writing so much trying to convince myself that maybe I'll be able to write out all the sadness inside me. I've written poems (shitty ones), stories, one-shots, letters, and all the other forms I could think of. So, tell me, please tell me, why am I still sad?

004: Things I Wish You Had Said Instead of Sorry

Monday, November 14, 2016 0 Comments A+ a-


Yesterday I somehow managed to burn popcorn in a microwave, forget to turn off a faucet for a full hour, and today skipped school because no matter how much my alarm blared this morning I just couldn't find the willpower to face the world.

This is a post about the things I wish you had said instead of "Sorry" when I was on the lowest point I have ever been.

Autumnal Equinox

Wednesday, September 28, 2016 2 Comments A+ a-


My mom once told me that our lives and everything that happens on Earth are connected. I never really understood what she was trying to say. I mean, sure it's connected. We're people, people live on Earth, everything that happens on Earth is connected to the people living in it.

I think I understand her better now.

A Life Update (with Friends GIFs)

Sunday, August 28, 2016 0 Comments A+ a-


Hello, I've been MIA for too long and have decided to return, not sure about the staying part though. Anyway, I thought I'd start the comeback with a Life Update since I haven't been around for a while. Also, I haven't written anything in 3 months, so this might get weird.

Orange Books and Orange Fruits

Thursday, May 19, 2016 2 Comments A+ a-


I hate the color orange. It makes me puke. But I found 3 really cool orange things that made me pretty happy the past few days. As with every bad day/week, my solution is to keep my mind away from the things that make me sad and do things that make me happy such as binge watching, binge reading, and binge sleeping.

This week's solution was binge reading.

P is also for Puppies

Wednesday, May 11, 2016 3 Comments A+ a-


No, this is not my pug. Just putting that out there before anything else.

For those who've been here for a while, you guys will know how much I prefer dogs over cats. And how much I wanted one. But every time I pitch the idea to my parents, something always comes up; we don't have enough space, I'm not responsible enough, my mom hates the smell, I'm way too young, and the list goes on.

But on my 17th birthday, my dad got me a pup.

P is for Poetry and Phil Kaye

Monday, May 09, 2016 0 Comments A+ a-



In the words of the great Edgar Allan Poe, "I would define, in brief, the poetry of words as the rhythmical creation of beauty."

I may have mentioned it a few times before, but poems never appealed to me as a way to express myself. I've never expounded on that, fearing that a mob of poets might come after me at night and write poems with my blood (okay, too much). But today, I want to expound on that and also share my surprisingly growing love.

004: On Turning 17

Monday, April 11, 2016 0 Comments A+ a-

I am sixteen, going on seventeen. . .
Dancing queen, young and sweet, only seventeen. . .

The post title and title card pretty much gives away what I want to talk about (also wow look at how messed up the shadows on that title card are). Anyway, if you've been around for a while you would know that I've always felt very uncomfortable with sharing my age; I usually use *toot*-teen, but today I decided to write about it.

Because why not?


Summer 2016 Bucket List

Sunday, March 27, 2016 0 Comments A+ a-


In my previous blog post I mentioned that this year I really want to make my summer memorable. For weeks I've been trying to plan out the things I want to do and wondering about the things I could or should do. So, last night, at  12 midnight, I decided to create a summer bucketlist.

I'm Going to Camp... NaNoWriMo 2016!

Tuesday, March 22, 2016 0 Comments A+ a-


I guess an apology for my absence should be here, but the sole reason for my absence is school (which is, thankfully, over now!) and a broken keyboard (which is also out  of the way since we  just bought a new one!).

Anyway, since summer has started rolling in. I decided to do something productive and also fun for the first month of summer. And it's Camp...

NaNoWriMo!


Timeless

Wednesday, February 17, 2016 1 Comments A+ a-


I was never one to write poems.

One, because I suck at it.

And two, because I have to google rhyming words every single time.

But here's me trying again.


003: Insecurities

Wednesday, February 10, 2016 2 Comments A+ a-


I'm apologizing in advance for what I assume would be a lengthy post with nothing but rambles and unorganized thoughts. 

It's prom season again.

Firsts

Wednesday, January 27, 2016 3 Comments A+ a-

This was inspired by a post from Joey Rambles!


First things first (did ya see what I did there?), I wanted to make the post title "My First Time" but nope too much innuendo. Worry not, it's not what you're thinking. This post will quite literally contain all (or most) of my firsts - first time out of the country, first YA Series, first crush, etc. 

Amaranthine

Saturday, January 23, 2016 2 Comments A+ a-


I realized it pretty late, but my blog just turned 2! I can't believe I've been at it for 2 years. I'm honestly surprised it hasn't joined the list of failed websites I create and delete every now and then. Anyway, as you may (or may not) notice, I gave the blog another major template change. I haven't touched the overall look of the place in a while and I decided to do it as some sort of celebration.

So here's to 2 years of blogging!

2016 and Still Procrastinatin' and Ramblin'

Sunday, January 17, 2016 2 Comments A+ a-

I tried to make the title rhyme, give me some credit. It was either that or New Year, New Me.

I was supposed to put up a picture of my own during New Year's, but guess what I am still super lazy. Credits to the original owner of the photo used above.

Anyway, happy new year, everyone! 
It's a little late, but technically I still have the entirety of the year to say that.

So, needless to say, I failed the 12 Posts of Christmas Challenge again. It's all good though because I had so much fun doing it and at least I got about halfway through it. I'm pretty proud of that achievement.

Anywho, so how was your vacation? Hopefully you all had a blast (see what I did there? *wenk wenk*)! 
Mine went pretty well. We spent Christmas at home and held a small party with relatives and then we went up North to spend New Year's at our farm along with some cousins. I missed the open space so much. We went biking (and guess who took sore-ass loser literally), we played American football (or y'know took turns throwing the weirdly shaped ball), and on New Year's morning, we went up a mountain and stopped by a river (#nature). All in all, it was awesome.

I could spend the whole day writing about how sucky 2015 was for me and how much I want it to end, but I still have to watch the Sherlock Special instead I'll just talk about how much I'm looking forward to 2016!

The first few weeks of 2016 were absolute trash, to be honest. With the passing away of David Bowie and Alan Rickman (this broke my heart and I was unable to function for a full 2 days). Plus exams were a few days ago, which absolutely sucked too. Also because Deadpool got an official rating and I'm going to have to see it with an adult. I'm not sure if it's just the woman hormones (I was bleeding a few days ago), but the first weeks of January was absolute, utter crap.

But, I won't let all the sad things get in the way of the happiness I'm hoping future days will bring. This 2016, I hope to stay motivated, read more books, write more stuff (even though it's crap), stay hydrated, and eat more. Generally, I just want to be happier than last year. I know it sounds super cliche and about 8263978629 people already said that, but I really have no argument for this so I'll just leave it to that.

Anyway, onto another note; Procrastinating. 2016 and I am still a professional.

I've been wanting to film a short thing for Valentine's Day and I've been planning it since December, but I just can't seem to push myself to do it. I've made a lot of, albeit embarrassing short films in the past and I guess the main reason why I haven't been filming new ones is because I feel like I will never be able to be good at it. When the truth is, the only way to be good at it and gain experience is to just do it. I would love to put Shia right here, right now, but I won't do it because I'm being serious here ( or at least I think I am ).

Our greatest fear should not be of failure, but of succeeding at things in life that don't really matter.
Francis Chan

I do fear succeeding at things that don't matter. Honestly, everything I claim to be the best at don't really matter. I claim to make the world's best mug of oatmeal (yes, mug). I claim to be a good writer. I claim to be a filmmaker (who refuses to make anything). I claim to be good at hand-lettering.

But what the hell, I shouldn't be letting that fear stop me from doing the things I love. Fine I'm good at useless things and that might not exactly land me a good college and an excellent job, but hey I'm happy.

That's what I want to say by the end of this year.

That's what I want to say by the end of this life.


P.S.
I'M TURNING 17 IN 4 MONTHS AHHHHHH



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